One of those days

"To much to think, don't know what to do, this is crazy,,, my life is a mess!!
Lord please help, I really don't know what I'm doing, I don't know were to go and what to do
I'm so confuse! Why is so hard for me to understand that he doesn't want me..
Why is so hard for me to understand that! Lord please help me, guide me to choose wisely and to do correct things!! I'm really exhausted I can’t even think I need to concentrate in school and my baby start my life all over.
You already know I love you with all my heart you already know that I want to try to work things out, you know you are my everything and that I love u so much, I know I make mistakes and you as well, I just cant understand why you can be here with us, as a family, u mean a lot to me but you are hurting me,
I'm praying for you, I'm praying that God can give u peace in your heart,
I just know you are coming back to me, I know it will be different this time,... I love u a lot but I really need to concentrate in the important things, I can’t think about you because you distract me, I have to focus, in my new life, in a different kind of life for the moment, I love you and I won’t bother u anymore."

This was at the beginning of the year, I went thru some hard times, my husband decided to get separated for a bit, cause he was confuse.
All I can say is it was very hard, we been together for 10 years and this really hit me hard...but all I know is that this happened for a reason and that reason is for us to be back together as we are now, we do make mistakes in life and sometimes we do regret doing things and until we see what we are missing is when we realize what we had was special.
Yes, we are back together stronger than ever! And this time with HELP, our help is God, without Him we are nothing, God is you are my everything He had helped us true everything.
I know some people don’t believe in God, but all I can tell you is those months that I was alone, thinking that it was the end of the world, thinking the I wanted to die, and don’t get it wrong I DO LOVE MYSELF A LOT!!! but I also love my husband, we were a team, and I was devastated but God was there, He comforted me, I felt His love, and that made me feel peace, He changed me and He made me wait for the right time.